My god, how do I even…
I was still having trouble with the FFXV Comrades beta yesterday–less the matchmaking this time, and more making it through the actual missions alive–so I decided to switch out to something else. The idea was to restart The Wolf Among Us, since I’ve only played a little of that before, and that was a very long time ago to boot. But for some god-forsaken reason, I decided it was a good effing idea to try P.T. out instead. (Here, have the not-terrifying Silent Hills wiki as reference.)
Even as I was posting last-minute announcement link to Tumblr, I knew:
And yet… I did it anyway. I don’t do survival horror. I have neither the stomach nor the skill for it. I’d never played P.T. in the past. I’d only barely watched it when others were here playing. But there I was, starting P.T. even though I knew better.
The video’s long (about 3h15m), but it speaks for itself.
Or, if you’d rather have the chat replay (though it’s kind of spotty) you can watch the copy saved to Twitch itself here. I wouldn’t have made it through to the end without the guys in my room, and they deserve a ton of credit for getting me through. Special apologies to one of the guys (iron_eagle10, I think? I can’t remember, I could only glance at chat for a second at a time and missed the name) for one of my screams being especially sudden and jarring.
But anyway… Wow. Am I glad I finally played this? I’m not sure. It was a hell of an experience, but one that left me sobbing and physically ill from anxiety for much of its duration. I’m guessing anyone else who actually still has this (since it was pulled from PSN and the only way to have it now is to never have uninstalled it in the first place) has already played, so I don’t feel the need to make a recommendation. There is, however, one very important thing I want everyone to remember:
George Lucas is my patronus.
Bonus: Victory cheeseburger and strawberry milkshake, because at about two-thirds of the way through the stream I wanted to stop playing and get ice cream, but all the ice cream places were closed by the time I finished.